Monday, May 7, 2012

White Butterflies

White Butterfly meaning: the soul of a child, transformation, purity, truth, growth, change, symbol of the soul, sign of angels watching over you, good luck, sign of a good life.


After I lost Evelyn, God tuned me in to his creation and his touch more than ever. A few months after my loss, I went for a walk and a big, beautiful white butterfly flew in front of me and landed on the green grass. It was one of those happenings that were covered in God's glory. The more I have experienced these moments, the more I have come to know the Holy Spirit, prompts from God, etc. God has revealed to me how much he is in control of his creation. My eyes shoot down at a word in the Bible and the word or passage feels like it is jumping out at me, I spot a white butterfly in the distance as I'm driving. All these things are not "me looking for something"...it is God. He directs my eyes, he puts his creation into motion at the exact moment...and then they meet.


I knew that the white butterfly on my walk was from God, and so I went home to look up the meaning of a white butterfly. And I read....some believe it is the soul of a child, etc., etc. I sat in awe of how God was speaking to me about my hurt and about my daughter's presence in heaven and the gift of divine encounters with him. I do not believe, however, that the white butterfly is Evie's soul. What I do believe is that God is in total control of all his creation, giving angels some control, and possibly giving people in heaven a little control. To me, this white butterfly was a little gift from God, Evie, and the angels that are with me...when the pain is just too much to handle, they are saying "I am with you, we are with you...see?"


After this first white butterfly incident, many more followed...too many to count. A few I remember distinctly. On Mother's Day 2011, the first Mother's Day after I lost Evie, my mom on and I were on the back porch talking before the Rock Goodbye Angel Balloon Release, and this white butterfly fluttered around us for about 30 minutes. It went away for a few minutes, and I went inside to get my camera. I knew it would be back. And sure enough, I came back outside and a few minutes later and it showed up....fluttering around us, and then landing on my big toe. I'll never forget the feeling of those tiny, delicate feet walking all around my toe. It stayed for a good minute and I got a picture of it. My mom and I were both speechless. We knew this butterfly was special the whole time it was with us...and then for it to land on my toe...it was confirmation.


I was having a pretty hard time the week or so leading up to my birthday, and I prayed for God to show me something to help me through...to know he was there. I was outside letting Max go the bathroom and this white butterfly flew right in front of my face...within inches. I immediately felt the overwhelming presence of God, and was so thankful for this little sign that he was with me.


A week or so later at the Rock Goodbye Angel Angel Babies 5K, held yesterday on May 6th....I was getting close to the finish line at the end of mile 1 and a white butterfly flew across the path in front of me. I wasn't sure if I'd run at all, but upon starting, I was determined I would. I made it about a mile and half without stopping to walk, praying the whole time for God to give me strength. I really had not trained and had not even jogged more than a few yards at a time since before I was pregnant with Evelyn. To see this white butterfly during this special run, was an amazing gift from God. God's overwhelming presence was with me the whole time, and I heard him whispering to me...I am your strength, I am proud of you, you are a survivor, my glory is on you. I was holding back tears the entire time...feeling God's heavy grace on me, knowing how far I had come since my loss a year and a half ago, remembering my little angel who is so dear to my heart.


We had signs made with our child's name on them that were placed throughout the course, and we took them home at the end of the day. I wasn't sure what I would do with mine, but my mom suggested putting it in the garden off the back patio near Evie's rock. I went out there this morning to put it in the ground and a white butterfly showed up...fluttering all around me. It landed on the ledge of the rock wall, I bent down and slowly put my finger right up to it, thinking it would definitely fly away. It stuck out it's very long tongue and felt around on my finger...then it slowly crawled onto it. I slowly stood up and just held the butterfly inches from my face marveling at it's beauty. What an amazing creature. To see this delicate creation so close up...I was in heaven for a moment. It walked all around from finger to finger, using it's tongue the whole time to feel around first.


I can only think that it was God that allowed this butterfly to have such trust for me...that it would crawl right onto my finger instead of flying away. Allowing me to bring it so close to my face, staying for a couple minutes...enough to bless me tremendously with our encounter. I believe there are opportunities daily, for everyone, who have prayed for new eyes to see and new ears to hear....to witness God in action, to feel and know his presence. If you ask, you will receive. What He has in store for us....it's unimaginable! Please, be reconciled to God through Christ.


"No eye has seen,
No ear has heard,
No mind has conceived
what God has prepared for those who love him"
-1 Corinthians 2:8


"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Matthew 7:7


For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.
2 Corinthians 4:6


2 Corinthians 5:11-21: The Ministry of Reconciliation
Since, then, we know what it is to fear the Lord, we try to persuade others. What we are is plain to God, and I hope it is also plain to your conscience. 12 We are not trying to commend ourselves to you again, but are giving you an opportunity to take pride in us, so that you can answer those who take pride in what is seen rather than in what is in the heart. 13 If we are “out of our mind,” as some say, it is for God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. 14 For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. 15 And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.
16 So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. 17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:[a] The old has gone, the new is here! 18 All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: 19 that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. 20 We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors,as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. 21 God made him who had no sin to be sin[b] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

8 comments:

  1. What an amazing testimony and story. You are right, God does move us with the smallest of things. My husband and I have been working on our front porch and deck, slong with planting and every day, no matter the time a white butterfly has been fluttering around. when we visited her yesterday, a white butterfly danced around our legs and my husband said, "I'ts Evie". Melted my heart for sure. Thank you for sharing what the meaning of a white butterfly is and your strong faith in Christ. I love your picture from Mother's Day last year!

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  2. Thank you for your sweet words, Kara! And that is so cool! I guess Evies would come in the same form! ;) Happy Mother's Day, love! She's with you...don't forget!

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  3. You have no idea what your words of inspiration have done for me. Im so sorry for your loss. I dont know if i could endure the pain of losing one of my children. You are an awe inspiring woman.

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  4. Christy, I just found your blog. I had a white butterfly land on a dandelion today.

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  5. As I read this article, I felt the presence of God. ❤

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  6. I went to visit my mom and brother and check on their graves. As I turned the corner into the cemetery and there were tiny white butterflies everywhere. My 93 year old dad was with me and he was in awe (so was I). They were very small and completely white, but they had beautiful markings on their wings that I could see clearly.
    When my mother died many years before, I didn't know Jesus. It was only a few years ago that I asked Jesus to come into my heart. My brother who was older than me passed unexpectedly and I worried about his salvation. I believe that these butterflies were to let me know he was right with the Lord.

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  7. As I sadly sit here, unbelievably grief stricken I prayed and prayed and prayed for the right article to HELP ME UNDERSTAND....WHAT THE TRUE MEANING OF SEEING PURE WHITE BUTTERFLIES OFTEN, JUST SINCE MY MOM PASSED AWAY IN MY ARMS JUNE 14TH, 2018.. Although I intuitively knew it was my sweet, precious mom coming to visit me..Especially in my times of despair...I've read that the pure white butterfly is a deceased loved one and her Angels coming to tell you..they are with you.. they love you unconditionally, they miss you and will always be with you to comfort you and make you feel protected and happy and that they are with you FOREVER, AND EVER AND ALWAYS..!!!!
    My 86 year old mom was the Best Friend I ever had...My biggest Fan..She was so forgiving and...OH MY...HER MAGICAL WORDS OF WISDOM...WERE DEFINITELY GOD SPEAKING THROUGH HER..
    I AM BROKEN...I HAVE EXPERIENCED DEATH OFF AND ON MORE THAN THE AVERAGE PERSON...BUT THIS IS BEYOND WORDS...THE PAIN AND LONLINESS I FEEL!!
    I WOULD GIVE MY OWN LIFE TO TOUCH HER SOFT HANDS JUST ONE MORE TIME.....OR HEAR HER VOICE..EVEN IF SHE WAS YELLING AT ME...LOL
    I RUN UP AND DOWN MY STREET WHEN I SEE HER...MY PURE WHITE BUTTERFLY...SCREAMING.."Come back mommy"...And I'm 60...
    My kids say my neighbors are going to think that I am crazy chasing a white butterfly calling and talking to my MOM!!!! MY AWNSER TO THEM.." I COULD CARE LESS WHAT THEY..OR ANYBODY THINKS OF ME "" IT'S MY MOM I'LL NEVER SEE AGAIN....
    WILL THIS PAIN EVER SUBSIDE??? WILL I EVER BE ME AGAIN??
    I'M IN THE PROCESS OF WRITING A NOVEL ABOUT THE WHITE BUTTERFLY...AND I TRULY THANK YOU FROM THE DEEPEST DEPTHS OF MY SOUL...THAT I NOW KNOW THAT I AM NOT ALONE IN THIS JOURNEY...THANKS TO YOU!!!
    I USED TO CALL THAT GOD BEING ANONYMOUS...NOW I KNOW BETTER...IT'S MY LOVING GOD....TELLING ME HE IS WITH ME AND MY GRIEVING CHILDREN ....JUST LIKE MY FAVORITE POEM...FOOTPRINTS...IT IS NOW THAT HE IS CARRYING ME..
    BUT, OH MY...THE PAIN IS ACTUALLY DEBILITATING!!! I THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH ONCE AGAIN...Jacki Masi...Erie, PA..My prayers go out to all of you such SPECIAL, STRONG SOULS!!! 👣👸🕊💔❤😥

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  8. Hi! I search about white butterfly, literally I had a vision , before I would sleep - I was singing , and listening worship music in my bed.. and one of my struggles is that I can’t accept myself, this started after teenage years, before I would know how God loves me..this is a big problem for me, I rejected myself many times..:( I will pray about this continously! I don’t understand why I saw that , I feel like God wanted to tell me He knows what I feel? Right after this vision about the butterfly flew right front of my face I opened ms eyes, and searched fast .
    That’s it :)
    God bless all of you!❤️

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